The Donut at Monte Cecilia Park in the rain
I want to learn to hunger well. Currently, I am hungering after crappy processed food that provides a temporary reprieve from my feelings of stress and sadness. It's report season, it's the end of the year, it's almost advent - these factors combine to produce the sort of maelstrom that has me reaching for Kit Kats. Only I don't want to anymore. I can't anymore. Kit Kats and fries do not satisfy me. I have found this out again and again, but I still get stuck in an endless loop of eating, feeling shame, resolving never to do it again only to stumble and reach for the chocolate a few days later. It's hindering my intimacy with God, it's stunting my character growth and it's curtailing my influence. I will repeat again: I cannot do this anymore.
I know that this is not about food, but rather satisfying my deeper desires. It's about hungering for the right things.
So, I'm undertaking a project. I have all sorts of caveats about this which I will expand on at a later date, but I'm short on time so I'll just lay down the parameters of this project and run.
Over the next 30 days, I commit to:
- Living by my Rule of Life
- Not eating any junk food (chocolate that's not dark, cookies & biscuits, lollies, muesli bars, fast food)
- Going on a short walk to listen to Lectio 365 each morning before work - seeking to start the day by stoking my hunger for God, not lesser things
- Documenting my walk in photo and my thoughts in writing on this blog each day
- Planning what to eat the day before and sticking to it
- Reading Scripture whenever I'm feeling hungry
- Rewarding myself with a little money towards my "Fun fund" for every day that I'm on track with my hungering
That's it for now, little Internet home. See you tomorrow morning.
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